Throughout my childhood, my mom worked hard to introduce us to theater, music, art, and nature (Odyssey of the Mind people – where you at!?) These exposures undoubtedly sparked my interest in entertaining people through humor and human connection. Put me in a room full of strangers and I’ll happily take the stage. My personality type has made it easy for me to connect with others, laugh at myself, and find comfort in uncomfortable situations.
Somewhere along the line, though, I lost my drive for creative expression and stepped in line with the mundane grind of making a paycheck and trying to figure out what I “should” be doing as an adult. I’ve often felt lost and purposeless.
Last year was a turning point for me. In June of 2018, I left my job to focus on finishing my final semester of college and plan my wedding. I graduated in August with a Bachelors in Human Relationships and Wellness, and married my husband Ryan in October. After the excitement ended, I was left with a void of “what’s next.” I no longer had papers to finish or wedding projects to craft. I wanted to go back to work, but to do what?
The past few months have been a period of angst, depression, unknowing and lots of crying. And honestly… I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Because in those moments, I’ve had to dig deep to define myself, my skills, and my interests. Every networking meeting, email, declined job application, every cover letter and resume edit has been worth it. I’ve been provided this time to re-explore my creative interests and I refuse to give up on achieving greater things.
I recognize the privilege I have my been granted. I have a loving partner who supports and encourages me every day to keep going and seek fulfillment. I also recognize my individual perseverance and drive to continually move forward. I’m embracing this opportunity to start a platform that gives me the space to explore my connection with others on topics of sex, dating, and relationships, and to offer my perspectives through education and humor.
I recently received this advice: “Get off self, and on purpose.” Being happy isn’t about finding a job and working simply for the purpose of helping myself. As soon I refocused my energy on opening doors by connecting with others, the energy and creativity started flowing. I hope that my story and progress helps someone else in refocusing their energy and redefining their purpose. Enjoy!